New Blog Address!!!!!!!

I wont be posting on this blog anymore......new starts require new blogs!!
Here is the link to our new site..... http://tashadawnand5.blogspot.com/
Come see us there!!

New photo blog.

Here is the new link to the new photo blog.... not much up there yet...but its coming!
http://t-h-e-photography.blogspot.com/

My thoughts this morning.

Here I sit at my computer waiting for my coffee to finish. Girls are still in bed and my mini man is playing in his playpen. I find I wake up with a heart ache every morning. I am not supposed to wake up to an empty space beside me, and every morning I do. But as the day goes on, it is so incredible busy that I don't usually have time to think about being on my own. That is until its time to go to bed and lay beside that empty place that is not supposed to be empty. Maybe I will let my dog start sleeping on his side of the bed?
Anyways....Gary and I are now legally separated. Its kinda hard to wrap my head around that one. I mean, I know that I am doing what is right by going forward with the separation but my heart is screaming, " I never asked for this! This is not what I want for our life, but how will I ever trust again!!" I do find I have an amazing amount of peace in my life right now and the kids and I are getting use to this new life...there are no more tears about daddy moving out and the insane hard to answer questions have stopped. My house is still driving me crazy and I wish that it was finished. That still makes me want to move. I guess that having concrete floors for 3 years is starting to get to me! And I can't do all the work that needs to be done....I know I'm good, but not that good!! Gary has been helping as much as he can to try and get the house done but it is hard because he has to work so much.
I am learning to take one day at a time and am really focusing on my amazing kids and on myself! I didn't even know I still had a "myself"! She has been gone for a LONG time!!! One thing I am doing for myself is pursuing my photography. My sister and I are starting to step out and are going to see where it takes us. We both stay at home with our kids and need to make some money doing it. Alisha has training in the digital end of the pictures so we make a really good team! We are setting up a temporary web page and I am going to actually start charging to do peoples pictures. I know, I can hear my mother and mother-in-law saying "ITS ABOUT TIME YOU START CHARGING!" Here is the link to the site. http://throughhiseyesphotography.blogspot.com
Well, my children are waking up and the morning routine is a little crazy around here so I better go!

Grace & Madi!

Today found Grace and I home alone with Reuben....who is cranky and teething. So Gracie got to have her best bud Madi over and we painted tee shirts! They turned out very cute and the girls are really enjoying being the only kids here. This never happens with this many kids in our family!! Here is their beautiful wearable art!

Family

My cousin got married last week end and it was a big family get together! I will have some wedding preview pics soon but for now here are a few family shots. Not all of the family was there...like my 5 children! but lots of them were..... My baby brother Chad, His wife Michelle and their girls Alexis and Emma.
My sister Alisha, her husband Wes and their kids, Abram and Olivia.
Some of my family....there are quite a few missing....but it turned out to be a good piture. I don't think we would have all fit in the pic if we were all there!

Back to school !!!!!!!!

Well it was a fun summer but it was also the LONGEST summer of my life! September 2nd could not come soon enough....but it did come and here are my kids on their first day of school!
Great Grandpa & Grandma Bradford bought the girls their backpacks and all the supplies in them!! Thank you again you guys!!

Miss Elizabeth started kindergarten and was glad to finally go to school with her sisters!

My amazing boy!

Here is the love of my life! I love having a son....I cannot imagine life without him!

Frog hunt

There is nothing like a good old frog hunt....and its even better to do it in your pajamas!




All they could catch was baby frogs...the big ones stayed in the pond and the leaches kept the kids out!!

Summer Fun!

We actually managed to somehow have a very exciting and eventful summer in the midst of all the changes in our lives. The kids and I spent tons of time at the lake, camping, lots of sleepovers and Emily and Alannah even got to go to the PNE!
Our summer started with house sitting at very good friends of ours farm! This included a beautiful log home, hot tub, pool, playground, pond with a boat ( and leaches) and a ride on lawnmower that mommy had fun on! So....here are some pics of our stay!

This is Grace's first time ever jumping into a pool....it was a very big event!!
She was very proud of herself:)
I don't know what to call this jump...... but that my Alannah!
My beautiful Emily....the water rat!!
Screaming sisters!!!
Pinky is a little more cautious in the water and didn't like getting splashed, so she didn't last that long in the water....
But she did fall asleep while lounging in her tube....so cute!
Here is the hot tub that I had to drain and refill cause it was NASTY after all the kids in it....after I cleaned it,it was a mommy only hot tub!
Here are some senery shot of the back yard! It was so amazing!

I'm still here.....I think.

I actually somehow have a quiet moment and thought I would try and update....school starts soon so I am hoping to have more time to blog.
O.k. Where to start??
The kids and I are doing well. It has defiantly been a time of change and adjustments but, holy cow, my kids are amazing. They are doing great with all the stuff going on. Gary and I have kept on good terms so the kids don't have to deal with our crap....they can just keep being kids. They see daddy alot....almost everyday. He has his own place and they go for sleepovers and hang with him there. It seems to be working well for all of us. Mr. Reuben is the most amazing little man!! He has stolen his momma's heart....and his Aunties and his Nana's and his Bugga's (grandma) and a few others as well. He is doing amazing with his breathing and is no longer on his monitor!! I have weaned him and he is on a bottle now. It makes me kinda sad but he is sleeping way better and can spend time with his dad now too. I guess my milk was really affected by all the stress in my life...he was nursing every 2-3 hours all day and night but now that he is on the bottle he is eating every 4 and is only up once at night!!! OH HAPPY DAY!
Well, my moment of quiet just got interrupted by kids so I have to fly...I will post pics soon!

Electric Pink!

And I don't mean the color!!

Exersaucer Boy

My Pinky Fish!

For all who haven't heard....

I am going to make this short...because I am getting tired of reliving it every time I have to talk about it. On Friday the 20th I found out that my husband had been having an affair. He packed his stuff and left that night and is now living with her. I have no explanation for this...It hit me pretty hard.....It hit all of us pretty hard. The girls are doing o.k. Each day gets a little better and a little easier. I have an amazing family and friends who have covered me and my kids with their love and prayers. And most importantly I have an amazing God who's promises never come back void and who's love never fails.
And that's all I have to say about that!!!

The Start of Summer!!!

Summer started with a blow but we are getting back on our feet and are ready for the heat!!(Thank-you Aunty & Uncle Wes for the pool!!) We had to cover the pool because the girls were burning like crazy!! They love the pool!!!!