New Blog Address!!!!!!!

I wont be posting on this blog anymore......new starts require new blogs!!
Here is the link to our new site..... http://tashadawnand5.blogspot.com/
Come see us there!!

New photo blog.

Here is the new link to the new photo blog.... not much up there yet...but its coming!
http://t-h-e-photography.blogspot.com/

My thoughts this morning.

Here I sit at my computer waiting for my coffee to finish. Girls are still in bed and my mini man is playing in his playpen. I find I wake up with a heart ache every morning. I am not supposed to wake up to an empty space beside me, and every morning I do. But as the day goes on, it is so incredible busy that I don't usually have time to think about being on my own. That is until its time to go to bed and lay beside that empty place that is not supposed to be empty. Maybe I will let my dog start sleeping on his side of the bed?
Anyways....Gary and I are now legally separated. Its kinda hard to wrap my head around that one. I mean, I know that I am doing what is right by going forward with the separation but my heart is screaming, " I never asked for this! This is not what I want for our life, but how will I ever trust again!!" I do find I have an amazing amount of peace in my life right now and the kids and I are getting use to this new life...there are no more tears about daddy moving out and the insane hard to answer questions have stopped. My house is still driving me crazy and I wish that it was finished. That still makes me want to move. I guess that having concrete floors for 3 years is starting to get to me! And I can't do all the work that needs to be done....I know I'm good, but not that good!! Gary has been helping as much as he can to try and get the house done but it is hard because he has to work so much.
I am learning to take one day at a time and am really focusing on my amazing kids and on myself! I didn't even know I still had a "myself"! She has been gone for a LONG time!!! One thing I am doing for myself is pursuing my photography. My sister and I are starting to step out and are going to see where it takes us. We both stay at home with our kids and need to make some money doing it. Alisha has training in the digital end of the pictures so we make a really good team! We are setting up a temporary web page and I am going to actually start charging to do peoples pictures. I know, I can hear my mother and mother-in-law saying "ITS ABOUT TIME YOU START CHARGING!" Here is the link to the site. http://throughhiseyesphotography.blogspot.com
Well, my children are waking up and the morning routine is a little crazy around here so I better go!

Grace & Madi!

Today found Grace and I home alone with Reuben....who is cranky and teething. So Gracie got to have her best bud Madi over and we painted tee shirts! They turned out very cute and the girls are really enjoying being the only kids here. This never happens with this many kids in our family!! Here is their beautiful wearable art!

Family

My cousin got married last week end and it was a big family get together! I will have some wedding preview pics soon but for now here are a few family shots. Not all of the family was there...like my 5 children! but lots of them were..... My baby brother Chad, His wife Michelle and their girls Alexis and Emma.
My sister Alisha, her husband Wes and their kids, Abram and Olivia.
Some of my family....there are quite a few missing....but it turned out to be a good piture. I don't think we would have all fit in the pic if we were all there!